Aug 18, 2009

Another Outburst

I just read some athiest comments to a song I like. Then... in seeking to feel something other than sad and depressed... I went to the LDS channel and listened to some comments about never being alone.
I can not discribe the feelings I have inside. I know when I listen/or read the words of those who call religion a "crutch", a "way to fill up your empty lives", "for the week"... I feel week, depressed, aloneness in their words.
There is no joy, just critisisim and mockery. I also read some responses from those who are anxious to "correct" their opinion and feel, anger and the need to be right.
When I go over and hear simple stories of God teaching eternal truths, it is freeing, so peacful and full of quiet joy and dignaty.

I have my own story. It is growing every day. I know that my knowledge is imperfect and would only be derided by those who make those kinds of comments. It would truly hurt me to post something sacred to me and be told I am a "moron"... or something simular. I wish to state here where it is my place to be and say the truth...

I know there is a God. He has spoken to my heart in a way I could never deny. I do not understand His ways fully but I know He is teaching me. I love Him and His Son with all my heart.

Aug 15, 2009

I'm going to do/say something I don't usually do....

I'm going to speak my mind.... It may be long it may be short but here goes.
I've just read an article I saw on a news line. It makes me incredibly sad. It literally makes me hurt to see people use the media to present one side of a story while using a few twisted comments to make it seem as though they are sharing both sides.
Why did I vote "yes" to 8? I did it for two reasons.
1... get this I know it's going to be hard to swallow... The Prophet said. I try to make my voting a spiritual thing. I want the Lord to lead this country, I should allow Him to lead my voting. If I sustain the President of the church as a Prophet (which I do) if he stands up and speaks out about something political (a VERY rare thing) I take notice and obey.
2... I would have voted "yes" anyway... after much debate of both sides... and trying to understand why the church would take this stand I realized two things. One was that under California law partners recieve all the same benifites that married people do. There for no "rights" are with held except the right to be called "married". So why should they push so hard to be called married? Then they have to deal with divorce and they have a high split up rate... It didn't make sense. Until I realized that they could then come and say "We have the "right" to be married." And any institution that said "no" could be put under legal action as having denied them their "rights". ... Why did Wilford Woodruff instruct the saints to stop practicing polygamy? Because it would have stopped the work of the temples. Why do I personally think we were told to fight so hard against this legislation? Because it had the possiblity of stopping the temple work in those areas...
Now that being said, I do not think that was the motive behind most of the supporters. I think most of them are people who are hurting and want to be seen as normal, good people. I think most of them are good poeple. I will not deny I am a bit of a homofobe... I don't like it about myself but it bothers me.. makes me sad for them. Would I like to be seen that way? No. Would I like others to see me as normal and aceptable? Yes. So, my heart goes out to those who are truly hurting. I wish I could make everything ok... but I can not. All I can do is love you and offer my support in rightous things. I could not support my loved ones in smoking and/or drugs... how could I in true love support someone in something that is as detrimental to their spirits? Yet I can love them. Period. I do not believe in "Love me, love my dog."

So there. I have spoken. I have many other opionions on many other topics but after reading that story and realizing how it was being used to misrepresent... I felt the need to represent myself.